dreamt i looked up and there were two moons beyond the trees. wow, more of that please. woke up thinking about this from wendell berry

“i will serve the earth

and not pretend my life could be better served.

my life is only the earth risen up

a little way into the light, among the leaves.”

I dreamt a friend called me, distressed crying worried, and asked if I’d seen the news. I said “of course not, I only look once a month”, she fell silent and would not respond anymore so eventually I put the phone down and went outside to see if I could find out the news. It was pitch black out in the city streets but were full with people and the sky was black except filled with thousands of shooting stars and hundreds of clusters of galaxies swirling around. everything in space was so visible, all the planets and stars clear and moving. I texted an ex to let him know what the sky was doing, he said he was too busy to go and look. I put the phone down again and watched in awe but I knew this wasn’t the news. I think it was just normal.

I dreamt a friend called me, distressed crying worried, and asked if I’d seen the news. I said “of course not, I only look once a month”, she fell silent and would not respond anymore so eventually I put the phone down and went outside to see if I could find out the news. It was pitch black out in the city streets but were full with people and the sky was black except filled with thousands of shooting stars and hundreds of clusters of galaxies swirling around. everything in space was so visible, all the planets and stars clear and moving. I texted an ex to let him know what the sky was doing, he said he was too busy to go and look. I put the phone down again and watched in awe but I knew this wasn’t the news. I think it was just normal.

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lower back/spines and scapulas - two side by side to show the variation in every body - so much bio and skeletal diversity - why we know it’s not about how yoga looks, or how our relationships look, or how our jobs look, it is about how we feel and that will take looking inward to know for ourselves.

lower back/spines and scapulas - two side by side to show the variation in every body - so much bio and skeletal diversity - why we know it’s not about how yoga looks, or how our relationships look, or how our jobs look, it is about how we feel and that will take looking inward to know for ourselves.

when I quit smoking 4 or more years ago I wrote it on a lot of things including a poster I slept under and this matchbook. was very declarative then. I dreamt last night that a man I used to know brought bugs into my home and I squished them all into halves with my long fingernails. I was mad at him but didn’t tell him. kept thinking “there can’t be more bugs” and there were. woke up at 3:30 am with a ringing in my ears. this morning I took the long walk, barely a scenic part, to yoga teacher training and saw a bird fly into a window that was reflecting the trees and sun. I could not handle it or cry for it until several hours later. learning to know and name my feelings. I love to and do cry often and remember when I thought I would not stop if/once I started.

when I quit smoking 4 or more years ago I wrote it on a lot of things including a poster I slept under and this matchbook. was very declarative then. I dreamt last night that a man I used to know brought bugs into my home and I squished them all into halves with my long fingernails. I was mad at him but didn’t tell him. kept thinking “there can’t be more bugs” and there were. woke up at 3:30 am with a ringing in my ears. this morning I took the long walk, barely a scenic part, to yoga teacher training and saw a bird fly into a window that was reflecting the trees and sun. I could not handle it or cry for it until several hours later. learning to know and name my feelings. I love to and do cry often and remember when I thought I would not stop if/once I started.

I need cats around.  I need trees reminding me of my stillness, my surety, my job here.  I need to know i am safe. I am safe i say over and over, lightly then deeply knowing it’s what’s true.  Praying to know you are exactly as you are meant to be in this and every moment. For the ones that have held me or ones who scared me Any, all.  Walking a way, knowing harder parts to it, being with the softer. In the cracks, i’ve seen shapes, heart- even, flowers, grass, dead and live bugs; under it, i know and love there is dirt, and beyond that, even more.

I need cats around.

I need trees reminding me of my stillness, my surety, my job here.

I need to know i am safe. I am safe i say over and over, lightly then deeply knowing it’s what’s true.

Praying to know you are exactly as you are meant to be in this and every moment. For the ones that have held me or ones who scared me Any, all.

Walking a way, knowing harder parts to it, being with the softer. In the cracks, i’ve seen shapes, heart- even, flowers, grass, dead and live bugs; under it, i know and love there is dirt, and beyond that, even more.

re-reading grilley and re-learning what rebounding after a posture  means . favorite mix lately: 1) wut - le1f, 2) luxury - azealia banks, 3) yeah, i said it - rihanna, 4) holy terrain - fka twigs feat. future, 5) raingurl - yaeji, 6) she gutta- mykki blanco, 7) lover chanting - little dragon, 8) cry - money mark, 9) different - princess nokia, 10) solita - mambo kings, ozuna, dj luian, feat. bad bunny, almighty, wisin, 11) crazy in love - covered by antony and the johnsons, 12) i’m not in love - kelsey lu, 13) no more honey - blonde redhead

re-reading grilley and re-learning what rebounding after a posture means. favorite mix lately: 1) wut - le1f, 2) luxury - azealia banks, 3) yeah, i said it - rihanna, 4) holy terrain - fka twigs feat. future, 5) raingurl - yaeji, 6) she gutta- mykki blanco, 7) lover chanting - little dragon, 8) cry - money mark, 9) different - princess nokia, 10) solita - mambo kings, ozuna, dj luian, feat. bad bunny, almighty, wisin, 11) crazy in love - covered by antony and the johnsons, 12) i’m not in love - kelsey lu, 13) no more honey - blonde redhead

i’ve dreamt so much of butterflies and sharks. was told I would cross a river and there would be something important there. had been afraid of and then made peace with a lot, bridges until my late teens. knowing details, nouns, don’t denote what’s important, knowing the undercurrent, feeling, does. wanting to know love as in forgive and accept.

i’ve dreamt so much of butterflies and sharks. was told I would cross a river and there would be something important there. had been afraid of and then made peace with a lot, bridges until my late teens. knowing details, nouns, don’t denote what’s important, knowing the undercurrent, feeling, does. wanting to know love as in forgive and accept.