I need cats around.  I need trees reminding me of my stillness, my surety, my job here.  I need to know i am safe. I am safe i say over and over, lightly then deeply knowing it’s what’s true.  Praying to know you are exactly as you are meant to be in this and every moment. For the ones that have held me or ones who scared me Any, all.  Walking a way, knowing harder parts to it, being with the softer. In the cracks, i’ve seen shapes, heart- even, flowers, grass, dead and live bugs; under it, i know and love there is dirt, and beyond that, even more.

I need cats around.

I need trees reminding me of my stillness, my surety, my job here.

I need to know i am safe. I am safe i say over and over, lightly then deeply knowing it’s what’s true.

Praying to know you are exactly as you are meant to be in this and every moment. For the ones that have held me or ones who scared me Any, all.

Walking a way, knowing harder parts to it, being with the softer. In the cracks, i’ve seen shapes, heart- even, flowers, grass, dead and live bugs; under it, i know and love there is dirt, and beyond that, even more.